I've been gone for forever it seems and this whole writing on the internet has never felt so awkward. I have to admit the past three months have been hell and a complete regression, and I am now back to square one. Because I couldn't afford to do a test that checked my hormone levels, I had to go off the Progesterone. This has been since February. It has been worse than bad. Long story short. I am back on the Progesterone again. Started last night. I've started physio to strengthen my muscles again, and now that I'm feeling stronger I've just started doing some workouts at home. (Slim in 6 yo) Which I really like. It kicks my ass, and reminds me I am indeed in the worst shape I've ever been in. But I'm done being sad about it, and just doing it. I don't want another year of being sick and bed ridden. I'm terrified I would never make it back from that. So I can honestly say, I am being extremely proactive and actually working hard at this. I'm trying to let go of the guilt of what I've put Taylor through.
He's just glad I'm working on getting better, and wants to move forward, and I am following him.

Love and Light
I appreciate you all ^.^
x o

Spring

More here

Big Balls

OK. last night? was insane to the top degree! LIKE. OH MY GOSH GUYS.

ONE? I am soooo glad i made my dad come, it. was. hilariuos.
First, he wore eyeliner. Second, his Christian Fish dangly silver earrings. THIRD? He sang Big Balls by ACDC.
KARAOKE! He'd never sung Karaoke before. lol



The dudes there were pissing themselves and singing along. It was like, I dunno man.

OK, SECOND, but the best. My friend won first place! So she goes to the semi finals and won a voucher for a wedding dress of her choice! They were awesome!! her sister and our friend were her back up singers, and they sang Dancing In The Streets and Beat It. And our friend that sang with her, during Beat It, jumped on a chair while singing and dancing.
Holy Lord it was beyond hilarious. ahhhh. It was an awesome night. :D

$#%@#@#$@@!!!!

OH MY GOD every picture i had taken with my camera since halloween has been corrupted and i cannot fix it, since they're not still on my camera. this REALLY SUCKS HARD. especially since most of them were of my niece at halloween and the holidays and her birthday and holy shit this is so bad!

how does this happen? they imported fine a couple weeks ago and then i go to edit them and it says the file is missing so its not actually the picture. except i cant FIX IT because i don't have them on my camera anymore!

AHHHHHHH *explodes*
*is now dead*
*this is cristy's ghost*
*life sucks, and then you die*
**and then your ghost comes back to keep blogging for you**

***SOB***

Our place! Our Place! I am still planning on doing a real full on proper video with pictures put in and everything, but my body feels like I was at a 24 hour rave, so that is just not happening today. But soon. I have pictures to edit all the way from the end of October. So I'll get cracking on that job soon. So until then. I give you the ruff version of our nest.

Team Tasty Craylor H.Q. from Criri K. on Vimeo.

Things I noticed from this video. My nose was more stuffed than I realized, and I really do drag my feet, alot.

Pictures and video taken today!
will post them as soon as i find/borrow camera usb cord.
probaly posting tonight!!

love!
-stop-

kablamm* appropriate sound effect*

my skull feels like its breaking open. my comfort is that at least it's not, for realz.

don't ask how im typing this. since my skull is broken open, i might as well let some wordz leak out.

went bulk barn crazy with my mum. it was lots of fun. (this was all pre skull destruction) bought some fancy grain mixes called jade mix and ancient mix. they have lots of awesome rice and lentils and all sorts of cool treasures that i'll cook up into awesome deliciousness-ness. once the skull bashing is over with, totes obvs.

I snagged a ton of cheap epsom salts (best pain killer!) and chili tvp for the veg chili i'm somehow going to make for family dinner thursday. i'm also making biscuits. have i mentioned im a cook from scratcher now? its a lot of fun. now all i need are the screaming kidlets. im barefoot always already. (i have seriously worn my birkenstock flip floppys all winter. to the out loud bewilder-ers amusement)



i'm really hoping this crazy pain stays to just my head.

back to the dark icy depths for me loves

chop suey cheer popsicles!

withdrawal sucks >.<
im going off a med my dr. wants me off, that wasn't really doing anything good. and i didn't like it either.
i can expect a constant, severe, migraine/puking(really hoping for no puking) for the next 10 days or so.

im hoping not. im hoping to do fun things instead. but i can feel it getting worse already and today's only the first day.