yar

two hours till we (mum, dad, myself) leave to go to the chiropractor. then this afternoon is my doctor appointment with a new female doctor. i'll be having blood work, full physical etc. hopefully she sends me to an OT or PT for my hands. hopefully also a prescription for sleeping pills. dear god, i pray this woman actually listens to me, and gives me some damn sleeping pills. i have had sleep issues my whole life. but it got bad (i.e. insomnia) when i was probably 12/13 and ever since then, i think i've been exhausted. how insane is that. nearly ten years. i have tried everything else. nothing works, or if it does help a little (melatonin) i can't take it constantly. and it doesn't work good enough anyways. the worst sleep, is when i am tired enough to sleep and go to sleep but my brain is just whirring away the entire time. that is terrible.
so yes, i have not slept. (i am not even going to touch on all the chronic pain junk) and i have a whole day ahead of me. (also i can't eat! because? blood tests!)
first, when we got here in windsor it was insomnia, because i wasn't getting enough rest and then would have to do things during the day. then i wouldn't be able to sleep. so when i finally was able to sleep, i just slept till i woke up. which today, three p.m. hence, still awake. i'm pretty tired, but there's no point really now, i still have to have a shower. maybe, i'll be able to have a nap somtime after chiro's and before lady doc.

how are you all?